Time to post a better update...

Well it has been almost two weeks since Brandon and I got back together. It was nice and I love that boy more than he probably knows. Us being apart this summer has opened my eyes to a whole new experience. It has made me realize how dependent I seem to be on Brandon and I never realized it until now. So I have been trying to give him space to help this whole separation thing go by quickly. It isn't working to well but I am taking it one day at a time to get through it. Even though I am growing up, what seems rather quickly, I can't help but think if this is the person that I am going to marry and have kids with and so on and so forth but every time I do think about it I remind myself that I shouldn't get my hopes up. I celebrate my 19th birthday in November and I think that I am just not experienced enough in the real world to consider even wanting to get married. But yet, I still do. I know what dress I want, what environment I want and who I want my bridesmaids to be.

For now, I am just going to focus on the relationship I have with my friends and my boyfriend. I am going to focus on getting good grades, possibly getting into a fraternity, and just living life and being young. Brandon told me something today that someone told him... "we have the rest of our lives to sit on the couch and flip channels" ... which makes me think about what I want to do before I settle down. And first things first, getting my first internship done... and I think I know where I want to go. Problem is... I have to get over my fear of planes...