As I sit here listening to "Keep Holding On" performed by the Glee cast, I am beginning to think about everything that's happened to me... especially as of late. I thought I found this wonderful guy but it turns out... he wasn't so wonderful after all. We started being incredibly romantic towards each other and then out of the blue... "oh I still have feelings for my ex. I realized that I am not ready for a relationship yet. I hope we can still be friends. I am sorry for leading you on." Seriously? I mean I totally understand about having feelings for someone but isn't the whole point of YOU breaking up with them... that you don't want to be with them romantically anymore? I guess I am just so aggravated about the whole thing that I can't just get over it already. I mean... in order to have a new relationship, you have to try. It's that simple. If you don't try, you won't get anywhere and you will be stuck in your comfort zone. It's hard trying to get out of your comfort zone which is something I have had a really hard time doing. After my break-up and then just trying to put my life together again... I really don't know what's been going on. This semester has been flying by so fast that I literally don't know what's been happening. Marching band and classes and trying to keep a social life... it's really getting to me. My sanity is like dissipating very quickly as of lately.

Dear you.

I want you to know that I can't stop thinking about you. For some reason, you always seem to cheer me up and you don't even know it. I don't know how to tell you how I feel. I just want you to see there is someone out there who could potentially like you for who you are... and not tell you "that I like you as a brother but nothing more". I think that's one of the worst lines... almost as bad as the "we can still be friends" line. I wish I could open your eyes and show you how I see you and maybe you wouldn't be so sad all the time. Life does get better. I can't promise you that... but for some reason, that's how I feel. I hope you understand this. Especially because you'll probably never read this ... so it just makes it all that much better.

My best friend is amazing. I love him dearly. He is probably the only guy who could say this too me and leave me completely speechless.

Thomas Hundley

it is after all "falling" in love

Thomas Hundley

you don't fall by choice or because you're looking for a cliff to jump off of

Thomas Hundley

you fall because there was something in the path that changed the direction of your life, gave you a feeling that you've never quite experienced before. that guy will be perfect for you. you won't be able to see flaws in him even though you know they're there. youll love him for who he is, not what he looks like or how "gifted" he is.

Thomas Hundley

but that could be just my interpretation of love

Good night.