Following the Right Road

I have been talking to him a lot lately. I feel like there are times when we could just be good friends and then sometimes, I feel like he's flirting with me. It is hard to tell over text messages but since I have been talking to him for so long, I am beginning to tell the difference. Though I do not agree with the break-up, I am not going to make it completely awkward between us and actually try to be friends.

After previous break-ups, I had a tendency to not talk to the person that I had been dating. I know it took a few years for me to become friends with a few people again.

But that was beside the point. I hate it when people fill thoughts into your head. Things that they really mean and then go and break your heart. I almost makes me not want to fall in love again. I am so shy and it is really hard to meet people.

For the last few days, I have been wondering what God has in store for me now. I want to know what His plan is but no one ever knows what His plan is until it's unfolding itself in front of our eyes. I feel like I have grown farther from God because I was too lazy to get out of bed and I always wanted to make people happy by always being available. My friends know that I am, during the school year anyways, always busy because I keep it that way by stocking up on homework and projects just to freak out the day before they are due. If I have managed to do them before the due date, then I get bored. However, my quality of work is a lot better.

So I have been looking for answers. I don't have a clue if I have found them but I know I won't stop looking until they have been answered.

[EDIT] I just remembered the real reason that I wanted to write a blog today. My birthday lands directly on thanksgiving this year. Unfortunately, I cannot go anywhere because of the Carolina-Clemson game on that Saturday. I can't ask anyone to come over because they will be spending time with their families. So I might have Kelly here with me and that's about it. I do hope that everyone has a good Thanksgiving and I am not trying to make anyone feel bad here. I want to bring light on a situation at which I seemingly am getting upset over. I'll figure out something to do.