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I am highly depressed. It's not that I am sad because of friends not being there or not getting a person to like me... that's not the case. It is just sadly realizing that everyone else seemingly well ... is making more friends in college. I am constantly by myself. I just don't want to branch out. I like the people that I hang out with. I like my roommate. I like some of the people that are on my hallway. But when you add it all together, there is a lot of downtime... time to think... and not about happy things.
Why is it that I am freaking out about this whole birthday thing? It's not like it matters. Who cares about spending their birthday with someone or some people. Nah. I prefer to be alone. WTF?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME! of course I want to spend my birthday with people. And the people who I really want to spend it with, won't be here. They'll be at their homes or in FLORIDA. Oh yeah, holidays don't matter either... so for thanksgiving break, I get to spend it at my house... all alone.
Its stressing me out. Its making me freak out because in a little over a month, it will be reality. And you are probably thinking, why don't you go to Florida? I can't. I have the Clemson game on that saturday and thus cannot leave.
oh well. whatever. i'll get over it.
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i know what you mean about the downtime...that's part of my problem, i think too much.
i'm sorry that you have to come up here instead of going to florida, i hope i'll get to see you guys sometime before you leave clemson
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