Memories... the good, the bad, and the ugly.

You know how bad memories always tend to stick out in your mind? I feel so obligated to write them down right now. Just to put them somewhere, where everyone can see them.

NY Memories
--I was at my grandmother's house and my mom had gotten out of the van. She dropped her cigarettes and I had picked them up. I ran towards the house and my mom asked what I was doing. I told her that I was throwing away these nasty things. She told me to stop and walked up to me and snatched them out of my hand and told me to never do anything like that again.
--I was in 4th grade and I had gotten up to get something. When I came back and went to sit down, someone took my chair right out from under me and I landed flat on my butt. Everyone laughed but it really hurt.
--I was in 4th grade still when my parents told me and my sister that we were moving, that we were moving a long ways away. Possibly to California. I got lucky when my dad found a job here in South Carolina. My dad moved down here while my mom, sister and myself stayed behind to finish schooling. When school got out, we packed up the moving van and left the house on June 26th, 2000. (yes, I still remember the exact date).

Moving...
--I rode in the van with my mom and sister along with our two cats (which we still have...) packed tightly. In Virginia, we had to stop because my mom got really sick and started dry-heaving. My dad got worried so we decided that it would be best to stop for lunch. It was starting to get dark and my mom was feeling a little better, so dad said we better get a move on before it started raining. If only we were that lucky. We got to the red light and it was raining so hard that we couldn't even see the moving truck which my dad was driving and my other "sister" Val was riding in to keep him company. It took us two days to get down here and we arrived at the house on June 27th, 2008, quite late might I add... about 8-9ish at night.

South Carolina
--When dad attempted to register me for school, they thought I was too young and wanted to put me back in the 4th grade. However, my dad protested saying that I had already passed the 4th grade and if they didn't believe me, that I could take a test. They believed him and I then entered the 5th grade without knowing a single person.
--It wasn't until October of 2000 that I made my first real friend with whom I am still best friends with today. All it took was a bus ride home and a discussion about a book. Jenny lent me that book and I read it... I don't ever remember giving it back though. If it wasn't for that girl, I would have been alone for quite some time.
--Entered middle school... thought I found the love of my life. I liked that one guy for a year and a half. And yes, I was crazy about it. But I was in freaking 6th grade... and part of 7th. I played flute in the band... and loved it. I was always happy sitting near Kristen and Jenny. Even if we fought over who sat where. We did Solo and Ensemble ... and it wasn't complete if we didn't go to Sandy's before or after to get a hot dog and some ice cream. Always my dad went with us, Kristen's mom and Jenny's mom. We made one interesting group.
--8th grade ... I made region band for the first time. 9th Chair. I was dating an amazing guy named Jon. And yes, I still talk to him to this very day. He is an amazing friend and, though he goes to a different school, can cheer me up in a heartbeat. I do miss you Jon. I also got the privilege to be in the high school marching band.

This is just sad. I was writing this blog about how many bad memories I had and now I can't seem to think about them, only good ones. It makes me think about how blessed I am to have these people in my life. How amazing these people are and I don't think they even know.

As some may remember, I hated Thomas's guts my first year of being a drum major. Now he's my best guy friend. I wouldn't trade him for the world. Tonight he said something and it brought tears to my eyes.

**please note, he is not talking to me. but his best guy friend**
Thomas: ... but you are one of two best friends that i have and i'm here to help you get through things, whether they be good or bad, i don't know everything, but i'm pretty good at giving advice, i don't share things with anyone but one person, and that person is not associated with anything that i do... and i trust her with my life. but you need to know that when you're ready to stop doing whatever you don't want to do that i'm here, if it's shelter or if it's friendship, food or money, i've got your back. now i don't know if you have someone that fits what i'm willing to give you, but i love you enough to say that if you need me... even if it's three in the morning 40 miles away, i'll help you now theres only two people i've ever offered that to, and thats you and my other best friend, so don't take it lightly now, you're probably gonna say that you don't need my help and right now thats ok, but there'll come a point in time that you do, and you'll look for someone, and i'll be there

That, honestly, is the most sincere thing I have ever heard a person say. And it's not only because he's talking about me but because I know that he means every word of it. Very few people do that. He managed to turn everything around. Wow, just wow. I am absolutely speechless.

I do have some of the best friends in the world.

A friend that goes to a rival school yet we joke about it all the time. And we're going to hopefully meet up at the game just so I can say hey and get a picture.

A friend who is almost 2 hours away, yet once we get a free minute, get on facebook and write each other messages... even when hers are soooo long it takes a good 10 minutes to read them. But I miss her so much, that it feels like that's the only time I get to talk to her. Now, that our schedules are incredibly crazy. Can't wait until Christmas break!

A friend who sticks by me not matter how many punchs I throw at him.

A friend who loves me... even when I don't want him to.

And the best friend I could possibly ask for. I can talk to him about anything and everything. He supports me in everything I do, even if its the wrong choice. He asks me for advice on the most random crap but I answer every question he might have because its good having a girl for your best friend.

I don't know where I would be without these people. Not here... that's for sure :)

Alright, well this blog is long enough... lol. Good night everyone... thanks for reading. :D